I don’t know if anyone will ever read this. I have always been a fat kid. I love food and think about it all the time. If I’m going on a trip I think about where I can do eat and will look a menus months in advance so i can decide what i’m going to eat. I will be eating my meal thinking about what i will eat next meal. I do a happy dance while I’m eating. I will show you so great places to eat and some not great places that i probably go and think about all the time. I’m want to get healthy and in better shape for my child. I don’t want to be the fat mom that the other kids talk about.  I want to love myself more.

I try often and always tell myself that I will start tomorrow. I have done a few different diets and some have worked but I always fall off the wagon. I like the saying i didn’t just fall off the wagon i burned it and used the insurance money to buy doughnuts. This is me.

I’m writing this blog as I place where I can write down my true feelings and not have to tell anyone what I’m feeling since I sometime think they just don’t understand.

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton